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Why


Why I am Songollay's maid.
(This is a Love letter. If you don't like it, tough.)

  1. Even though we have a dishwasher machine and it would be just as easy for you to put your dishes (or all of them, when you graciously clear part of the table) straight in it, you plop them on the counter instead and I have to put them away.
  2. I do basically all our laundry, not letting it go too long, hang it up properly as you asked, put it around the room for moisture, put it all away in closet and drawers. Pick up your laundry after you've used it, lying on the floor or the bed. Including your underwear - at times when I'd rather not.
  3. I change the bed regularly.
  4. I vacuum our room. Pick things up and throw away. Put away cat toys.
  5. I do most of the cooking and cleaning for ourselves.
  6. I offer to brush your hair, which you sometimes let me. I offer to wash you, but you don't let me. That's one thing you could do for me.
  7. You leave lights on, doors open, things lying around, and I deal with them.
  8. You ask endless questions until I am exasperated, and I deal with it.
  9. You pull away, or push me away, and I deal with it. It really hurts, you know. I have no one else!
  10. You ignore me, even when I have begged for attention, and I deal with it. You pay attention, grudgingly, and I accept it.
  11. I sit at your feet, and have no dignity or self-esteem, and I don't care. You could beat me and I would take it. I have learned that negative attention is better than none, as Dr Emoto proved.
  12. Your will is stronger than mine. Sometimes I want to push you face-down on the bed by your hair and take you by force, but I don't. And I would not be able to if you looked at me. Your will is stronger than mine. I accept that.
  13. Do you need more reasons? I gave you a gift and the cat threw up on it and two weeks later I hand-washed it for you.
  14. For the Centre, I cook, clean, do laundry, do all the "dog work", and usually don't argue with the decisions you make about running the Centre. I'm OK with that. You are a far better planner and organizer, and it's fine. I don't have to prove myself or "be the man".
  15. I take endless interruptions from you, the helpers, callers - even while eating - so that I can't keep a single thought straight in my stupid male brain, and at the end of the day you ask, "what did you do all day?" and I have no answer and I take it.
  16. I was considering leaving you, but you cried piteously and I couldn't. I wish you would brush my hair. What am I getting out of this? At the very least, you should submit to me sexually, but you're a Goddess and won't really do that anymore. You make all the rules and do everything your way and I put up with it.
  17. Still need more? Making this list, I get aroused and love you more than ever. I am still wild about you.
  18. Anything I have is yours.
  19. I tell you about very personal things, and you trample them or try to fix me, because you are afraid the whole thing will go to pieces tomorrow (as the old song says) and I deal with it. I would not take this from anyone else, you know.
  20. I will not marry again. If you asked me again today, I would say no. But I am staying with you, because I gave my word, and the situation is still workable, and because you cried piteously and I would rather die than feel that again. Beat me, burn me alive, abandon me: I will still love you. I am not going to change my mind.
  21. There are only a very few things I will not give up for you. No sex or not sleeping together = not married. You better not touch my sites.

You married a Geisha. Probably bad idea.

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